And how does this relate to a squish-mellow

I've made a conscious decision (RIGHT NOW in this post ) to stop the continual stress over social media /(not excluding-Substack) "reach" (clicks /likes and I'm turning 'that part' over to universe (my faith) .

I can control how much I write, and how much time I work on creative contentI have zero control over the algorithm and that makes my hairs and my soul hurt .

I know when it's published self or otherwise- it's the same equation- (I will not be able control its reach, who reads it and if readers scorch the entire earth in vehement rage on good reads with a vitriolic 1 star review - if I am so lucky ).

But that's is me putting the 🛒 sixty clicks ahead of the 🐎 .

And it's kinda of a pattern with me.

I back off -"social media content learning-creating & planning" and write a lot!!!

I go full speed with the "social media content creating and planning " and don't write anything for days or weeks.

It's frustrating and causes me to be very upset with myself.

Thusly-

I have organized my platforms as best as I can and I'm happy with my 'content - (although - I just deleted at reel bc it had very little reach/engagement (again) YET-also a wake up call that I'm putting too much heart & soul into then algorithm-ickies.

Facts /Learnings:

--Writing /journaling / substack all equal a -sense of accomplishment and fulfillment within my soul and fill my hedgie heart and cup.

---Content creation

- sometimes I do feel accomplished and creative and fulfilled --

But more often than not- there is this voice that booms in from the MetaVerse- "you're doing this all wrong!!" I get depleted and want to throw my phone in the lake, get a rotary phone and learn calligraphy.

I know marketing is a big part of writing.

I know a lot of it happens on socials.

I know you gotta market yourself and your book.

But socials and me- we are like a bad ex that I need to keep as a friendly acquaintance as if we have a fabulous shared custody arrangement over a Squish-mellow.

If you've read this far - thank you! And if anyone feels remotely like I do- hang in there! We will figure it out!